In the haze
I envision burning my room
Removing all evidence of my
From the substance of matter.
I try to struggle to find purpose,
It all slips through my fingers,
Late at night I can’t tell you how
How everything I try,
I try not so well.
I attempt to rewire all the faults
in my brain,
Only to find all the replacements
to be exactly the same,
I can hear the voices so clear,
“Give it time!”
The longer I spend the less I find,
The less of me,
The more I unwind.
Im clutching to the ‘I love you’s’ I hear,
When the memories come back
at me fierce,
They pierce and they sear,
Hurting all I hold dear.
It’s trying to break me down
All the bricks I build up,
It tears them away.
I wonder if they can see I’m not okay,
I wonder if it’s what keeps them
I tell you I love you like it’s the
last I may say.
But you hear it like it’s just another day.