You are a light in my doubt of existence. A guiding flame in the abyss of condemnation. I am grateful for your lovely being. And all around your effervescent glow is trailing. And so in the comfort of your phosphorescence ocean I am vividly sailing.



I can waste inside of you

Never be anything but a sliver of you

All I can conceive is your entirety and my part within it

You are a minefield of astounding

Blow me apart Inside your brilliance

Your magnitude I concede to with gratitude

Pull me apart in your fascination

Unravel me without reservations

Stiffle Me inside your livelihood

Abandon me amongst the red wood

In all your ficklle ways

Still I cannot meet your gaze

I don’t want a vision of face

All I want is your presence

Your energy is a blaze

Light me up and burn me away


In your cocoon I felt I would come apart

Inside the womb of your blossoming I flushed

All your warmth redeemed my skin

Your trembling breath shuttered on my lips

Your shivering hair listened in my grasp

You were all the wonder of vibrancy

Squeezing from me all awe

I am your ponderer

I marvel only to be stricken by your serenity

Cool clean eyes bath me

I have sinned and loathed whilst not understanding

Your beauty is all my being sustains for

Like the quivering notes of a starving singer

Salivating for the next tone of life

Play my strings like sweet decay

Let my cells fall amongst the shifting stomach of forest floor

Let my ashing leaves caress Your startling spring

For if I was ever life it was in your cerulean gaze

Who so studied my decomposing soul behind striving leather.

Say to me in humming strength

Let all seek and know

Let all come and go

Let will be driven

Ancient pulses strode through in a piercing strangeness

These forgotten limbs arose once more

Recieve them now in honor

Your laughing fingertips

That engulfs the light


A hinderance of being.

I am sifting through the meaning.

Of my decomposed throat.

On the politeness I choke.

I wretch my hands in frustration.

To communicate the irritation.

All I am bleeds through.

For no one to see you.

Its a slow killing.

To be so unwilling.

 And restrained to experience the abuse.

To be stripped from what you choose.

I wont scream in placid screens.

I am an animalistic ruse.

The walk

I took to walking on a lark

And found myself wandering in the dark

Amongst the shadows and the shade

I found the marvels that nature laid

Towering trees encompassed my being

Then the silence swallowed everything

This stillness I could not deny

And in it midst an essence lie

There amongst things unseen

I sensed its presence following

In the cracking leaves underfoot

I heard its laughter taking root

Never had I felt such a force so serene

And found its touching all dearly keen

In my eagerness to know

I felt the force tremble and grow

And over head the birds did sing

And in the distance a pack howling

A supernatural wind traveled so

Past all the trees swaying to and fro

These voices rising in a lament suspicious

Such a curious way for fluttering pitches

In such a fashion I did observe

Fading humbly beyond all nerve

Thus I was beside all self

And completely wandered into something else

And in the richness of the elm

Found myself in a fey like realm

And so I reveled in their mellifluous chorus

And abandoned myself to the forest

I was not to be seen again

And so I met the timely end