They teach you being pretty takes you places
but not what to do to get those pretty faces
See I was never in the in crowd
Hair so frizzy it never laid down
Too awkward to be social
Too honest when lies were crucial
I never had long legs or long lashes
I put on highs heels and mascara
Took the innocent girl I was
and burnt her to ashes
Stopped eating so I can be lovely
Holding back so you can love me
My breast were too big
and my thighs too wide
How can I live?
how can I hide?
I will never be good enough
and I am so ugly!
Who would ever?
Who would ever love me?
I just want to be beautiful
I just want to be gorgeous
Have all the attention that the whores get
If I open my legs
If I get on my knees
If I beg
If I please
Will I ever be right
everything I do is wrong
Tried to shine in the light
but it seems like I have been in darkness along
I want you to look at me
and I want you to see
I’ve become everything you wanted me to be
All your brand of fucking pretty!
And still you won’t look my way
or glance at my fucking face!
You said if I was this
and if I had that
But now I am too broken
and you can’t stand that I am too sad
I don’t get it, I killed myself for you
Cause who I was wouldn’t do
And now you want the old me back
you miss my poetry and my awkward laugh
What the fuck do want from me and make it clear
because if beauty is confidence I was already there
But you told me I could be better
and that is what I tried to be
now you crash me to the ground
and say you just want me to be free
I was already yours.
I will never be for you again
Now I am mine
And now this is the end.
Cause I am sick and tired of this standard of pretty
I like my unruly hair
and what my curves do for me
and you know what, I wish you were dead
just so you can see, what it is like to kill yourself
and then have some asshole tell you to be free
Cause I was always fucking beautiful
Before your sickness crawled up inside me.