I wish I was a naturally unreliable person so that people wouldn’t depend on me for anything. That is why I try to come off as lazy as possible. I am too dependable and people expect too much of me. I am just a living organism. We aren’t very reliable. Shit we die at the drop of a hat. I am just not up for disappointing people. Which I seem to do endlessly without even trying. I do my best. But I guess my best just doesn’t compare when it comes to others people’s perception of best. I just can’t live up to anyone expectations.