I wish I knew everything that is going to happen.
That way I could appreciate it when it comes to me.
I wish I had access to all the secrets I already know.
I want to let go of all the weight I am afraid to be free of.
I wish I knew how to be in bliss and at peace.
I sabotage my own peace.
Raised in hell I never learned how to take a breath.
How to let go and just rest.
I want to meet great beings with all understanding
I want the world to be cocooned with good vibes.
but I am flawed
starts with me